no use in crying...

i was always told as a child that there is no use in crying over spilt milk. what is in the past can't be changed, unless you somehow magically develop the ability to time travel, but you're only making your wife wait on you and you end up naked most of the time.

people change, constantly. the universe itself is always changing, forming, adapting, and you can't stop it. so what happens when two best friends start to change, but they change towards different directions. you find yourself either having to part ways, or work your ass off to adapt to each other. it's a two way street, so both need to place the same about of energy and time into repairing the rapid misfire of a broken relationship that once worked in perfect harmony. sometimes when you wish you could go back to when things seemed perfect, you have to reflect on why you're still friends- these changes are normal, and a right of passage in life. friendships are relationships that need to be evaluated at this time of change. are you friends with who they use to be? are you still friends with the "new" them? what happens if one choose to stay connected, and one chooses to drop the changed friend?

relationships change, it's a fact of life. but starting over, creating new friendships, developing new relationships, is a difficult task. many say that i make friends easily, but they are wrong. it takes a lot to be that funny, outgoing kid who always smiles. but recently, i've been placed in the above situation. it seems like some members of my closest friend circles are developing at a different pace and direction than me. some faster, some slower, but either speed or direction, i have found myself searching for a few new close friends. i've tried putting in the effort to amend those lost relationships, but i only end up getting crushed, and dissappointed. i need to grow thicker skin, develop a larger personal bubble, and not wear my heart on my sleeve so much. i like being the nice guy, but in ALL reality, the nice guys finish last.

so with the changing of the season, and the wind coming from a new direction, i've turned a new leaf. i'm no longer going to cry over you, spilt milk, and if you decide to change your mind, i may or maynot be there for you to run back to. instead i'll keep myself busy, and trying new things. i have a feeling this is going to be the most difficult, yet most rewarding year to come.

till next time,

eat your veggies! afterall, this is the confessions of a college dieter.