Saturday, December 25, 2010

how to: nyr style

is this your year? notice i said "is" not "was"...

as 2010 comes to a close (THANK YOU SWEET BABY JESUS)- i encourage you to spend the next week reflecting on the good and bad of the last 365 days (note the previous blog on my reflection process). now, if you're in the same boat as i am, you're willing to forgive AND forget with the upcoming year- starting with a BLANK slate. i'm one who gives out second changes about as often a full lunar eclipse on the winter solstice (there have been few exceptions to this rule- and you know who you are.) But guess what- starting at 12:01am on january 1, 2011- you get a second chance. a COMPLETE full chance. you are starting with blank slates in my book- wiped clean. you can interpret this as a beneficial or detrimental event as you so choose.

now- many stress over this time of year. it's the beginning of a new year, and you're suppose to change things, right? well. no. change should promptly come when it's needed. don't fix it if it ain't broken. so, my question to you- are you broken? or is your life perfect?

if you are like most of my dear friends, you wouldn't consider yourself broken, but you're life isn't perfect. a few changes typically are needed to be made. here a few steps in helping you make those changes.

1- DON'T KILL YOURSELF. sounds normal right- but new years resolutions are stressful and successfully completing one takes quite a bit of energy and willpower- why would you ever overload yourself with more than THREE. prioritize with what's the most important to you-- gaining love, losing weight, reinventing yourself, obtaining a new job, quitting smoking/dropping a bad habit, and improving a current relationship all at the same time would KILL you.

2- DON'T HOLD IT IN... here's the thing- most of us are afraid to admit our imperfections and flaws. so naturally, when it comes time to improve them, we keep these dirty little secrets to ourselves. society somehow makes us think we should keep these secret desires of change to ourselves- partially because if we fail to commit to the change- the only one who will know is you. society has told you WRONG. the more people who know, the more support you will have. there's no harm is asking for help or reaching out if you need help, and any TRUE friend would be there to support you. don't believe me? confide in me. i'll help you as long as you have the desire to help yourself first. build your support system and your can accomplish much more than what you can by yourself.

3- DON'T BITE OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW- "i'm going to lose 150 pounds in 3 months!" yeah- and end up dead or failing. i'm a big advocate for shooting for the moon, but the most successful changes come in a small increments. aim relatively low with your goals. set achievable goals that aren't out of reach. ten to fifteen pounds make a world of difference and can easily be completed by april (with dedication, willpower, and strength from a strong support system!) if you decide that you're wanting to do an entire makeover on yourself- contact me, we will talk! (i'm currently going through this process- let's share stories!)

4- DO WRITE YOUR GOALS DOWN- you are more likely to achieve your goals if you write them down and place them somewhere you can see them everyday. get creative. :)

5- DO REWARD/DON'T PUNISH- when you make small steps towards your goal, make sure you take the time to celebrate! i'm not saying for every five pounds you lose, go and eat 30 pounds of chocolate cake, but make sure you emotionally and physically reward yourself. a little Pavlovian conditioning goes a long way.

and with that- i wish you the best of luck. good luck making the changes that you feel necessary. let me know if you need any help.

till next time,

eat your veggies! afterall, this is the confessions of a college dieter.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

there's a fine line between love and hate.

here we go again. 2010.

what a year. it's amazing how a year can change someone. making you stronger, faster, wittier, smarter or the exact opposite. a year of memories, firsts, and new beginnings with some repeat offenders.



there's a fine line between hate and love for this year. i hate who i've become- but love the direction i'm going in. i hate the mistakes we all made, but love the fact we've learned from them (hopefully.) i hate the fact that i'm addicted to facebook- but i love the fact that someone cares enough to text/call/or im me when i seem down. i hate the fact that i've let my grades slip- but i love my new major. i hate the fact that i've met someone who has changed my life by being completely honest and picking out my flaws- and i hate the fact that i hurt him- but love him for being honest. i hate the fact that i fell in love with my best friend- but i love the fact that i now realize, we are perfect as best friends- and wouldn't want to change that at all. (those are two separate people--- yeah, i know) i hate the fact that i'm dramatic- and over-react- and over-analyze. i hate the fact that i haven't been living for me and constantly putting others first. i hate that i feel like i can't talk to you because i feel like you don't want to be around me- but yet, i love our time together. i hate the fact that i walked out of that housing office today without tears coming down my face- leaving something that i once loved more than most.



so as you can see- 2010 has been a lot of hate, and a little bit of love. i think i've finally got this whole 'me' thing down- doesn't mean i like it- but i have a stronger understanding of it. and i'm cool with that. i have amazing friends (some quite unexpected), a very loving family (i couldn't ask for a better mom), and am ready to embrace the changes that need to be made. i'm changing all the hate. i'm changing all the regrets. i'm changing all the things i don't like FOR ME.



yes- in case you've been living under a rock, or blocked me from your mini-feed from facebook (which i totally don't blame you for- jeeze, i am so annoying on there), or just don't pay me any attention, i'm having surgery next year. i'm having the lap-band surgery. my final surgery consultation is january 7, and hopefully, surgery will be in early february. HUGE change number 1- healthy lifestyle.



change comes with a lot of excitement, and yet, it's ushered in with no short of consequences. relationships could be broken- but honestly, its for the better. relationships could be forged, and we just pray it's for the better. my social life will have to decrease- goodbye thursday at flipside and parties at the alpha sig house- my grades are a top priority; i'm not going to get into grad school on a 'c- honor roll.' i've made quite a few mistakes this past year- i just pray i'm smart enough not to make them again. it's time to quit dreaming, wake up, and grow up.



2011 looks promising. i pray, in 365 days, i'm blogging about how amazing my life is. that i've made the best decisions, and i've found where i'm suppose to be. gone are the days of over-analyzing and worrying, and being dramatic about everything. i need to learn to own the night- like the fourth of july. let me let you in on a little secret, that i have never told anyone before--- baby, i'm a firework- i'm one of the most amazing people you will ever met- and i'm not afraid to tell you that to your face anymore. i'm going to change the world. 2011 is going to be my year- the year of MATT. so many changes- so many self explorations, so many new experiences... lets do this. you're either going to stand beside me, cheering me on, or you're going to get left behind. i'm going to love me for once.


till next time,

eat your veggies! afterall, this is the confessions of a college dieter.